我唔敢拎轉頭,因為我唔想聽到自己親耳比人拒絕。咁唔知結果總比自己親耳聽到拒絕嘅說話好啲嘅,做人留返小小尊嚴比自己。

我快步行去教員室,去到個位到就比Amy攔住咗。

佢問「點解你面色咁差嘅,等陣放工使唔使去睇下醫生吖?」

比Amy咁講,我先喺自己個位張枱到,攞起放係一邊個鏡,原來我面色真係有啲差。

喺我諗得出神之際,眼尾見到Amy仲係好擔心咁望住我。我努力擠出一抹微笑,同佢講





「我唔使睇醫生嘅,可能係呢排有啲攰啫。我今晚早啲放工,返屋企瞓多陣就得啦」

Amy好似都唔太放心「咁你有唔舒服記住要打比我喎」佢講完就返咗自己個位做嘢。

我下晝唔使上堂,所以就改下簿,出下工作紙,整下遲啲堂上要比學生睇嘅PowerPoint咁。平時下晝無堂個時我都係做呢啲嘢,只係今日有啲心不在焉咁。唔講都唔知Jenelle對我有咁大影響。其實佢避開我可能真係唔太鍾意我啦,但係做得老師呢行,點都會有啲學生唔鍾意自己架啦,好正常啫。但係點解嗰個學生係Janelle,我就咁唔開心嘅?

我諗咗好耐都比唔到答案自己。望一望個鐘,都已經五點。索性返屋企,繼續坐喺到都專心唔到。我攞起手袋,行出學校門口,打開手機。竟然比我見到1個Anson send比我嘅message。係喎,分手嗰時我都無block到佢。因為係佢自己講分手嘅,我唔覺得佢會主動聯絡返我,block咗我就差唔多。而家見到佢message,仲有啲驚訝添。我忍唔住click入去睇佢send咗啲咩比我。

「Hazel,我想今日嚟你屋企攞翻我之前擺喺到嘅嘢,唔知你方唔方便呢?」






其實都合理嘅,分咗手佢要move on都想抹去我同佢之前嘅回憶。佢要攞翻啲嘢都好正常。諗到呢到,我即刻覆返佢。

「可以啊,你大約7點鐘過嚟啦。」

呢個時候,我唔可以表現得太小氣。一方面係如果我連呢啲咁合理嘅要求都唔應承就太唔通情達理。第二係其實我都好耐無見過Anson,就連分手都係call嗰時講,而家有得見,有個體面啲嘅分手都好嘅。

諗下諗下,又到7點幾。我聽到個門鈴響咗。我深吸一口氣,打開咗對門。

Anson入咗嚟,仲話「我遲咗小小嚟,唔好意思。」





我緊係話「唔緊要啦。」

佢講完呢句就無講嘢,專心執返佢留喺到嘅嘢。我企係佢後面,有啲好奇咁睇佢仲有咩留咗喺到。一睇,原來都真係包羅萬有。小至牙刷,大至個行李喼,PS4都放曬喺我屋企,唔怪得佢要翻嚟攞啦。

突然,Anson停低咗手頭嘅動作。我有啲不解,順住佢嘅目光望去。Oh原來佢係望住支結他。

呢個時候,Anson 開口問 「Hazel,你仲記唔記得我第一首彈比你聽嘅歌係咩啊」

我莞爾一笑,心諗點會唔記得吖。我答

「我緊係記得啦,咪Keshi嘅more囉」

佢雙眼直視我「不如我而家彈一次比你聽,好唔好?」





我比佢望得有啲唔自在,答「你咪彈囉」,然後攞咗張凳比佢坐住彈

佢坐低,攞起結他,自彈自唱。

「Said she want more, I'm not enough
Getting low and I think I'm giving up
Baby, come home
I want us, I want us, said, "I want us"
Said she want more, I'm not enough
Getting low and I think I'm giving up
Baby, come home
I want us, I want us, said, "I want us"
Said I gotta
Get money, swear I still love you
I don't wanna go, but you know that I have to




Touch road, gotta play shows
Crowd go wild for the shit I wrote
But this shit so-so, lose control
Gotta change up everything I know
Better, run ways when you smell that smoke
Better, hold me when my head gon' blow like
Hasta la vista
Dying to see ya in a dream that I had
Where I sing in arenas
Hasta la vista
Dying to see ya
Baby, it ain't so bad
When there's nothing between us
Said she want more, I'm not enough
Getting low and I think I'm giving up




Baby, come home
I want us, I want us, said, "I want us"
Said she want more, I'm not enough
Getting low and I think I'm giving up
Baby, come home
I want us, I want us, said, "I want us"
Gone so fast, all the bad habits not gon' last
Better run back, kid
Just so sad, worse than last year
Just might crash, just might crash
Just might
Everybody left, except for you and I
She don't want stories and lullabies
She don't understand that it's do or die
Said I can buy it all, but it's all a lie




No trade for the things I lost
No train for the boy that stopped
Run ways into these arms of mine
No trade for the things I lost
No train for the boy that stopped
Run ways into these arms of mine
Said she want more, I'm not enough
Getting low and I think I'm giving up
Baby, come home
I want us, I want us, said, "I want us"
Said she want more, I'm not enough
Getting low and I think I'm giving up
Baby, come home
I want us, I want us, said, "I want us"
Said she want more, I'm not enough
Getting low and I think I'm giving up
Baby, come home
I want us, I want us, said, "I want us"」

Anson唔知幾時彈完咗。喺我恍神嘅一瞬間,我feel到佢攬住咗我背脊。

我想掙扎,問「Anson你做咩啊,放開我啦」

佢攬得仲緊咗,把聲有啲沙咁開口

「Baby, I want us.」
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